so, we are still in town.

we are supposed to be in the mountains, as of tuesday. but hubby's job had other plans.

i LOATHE this job and the people he works for. I have to be careful, but I can tell you that they have basically blackmailed him into working for this company and another. So, that being said, hubby is on a MASSIVE job hunt. So if you hear anything for a UNIX admin, it would be much appreciated - (oh, stipulation, in colorado ;))

his mom was trying to hook him up in san diego - which is exactly what we don't need right now.

oy. and yes, my presents for the ILs are still at my house. we didn't leave the house today b/c i didn't feel like venturing to the post office with two kids in tow.....as the post office is a nightmare itself w/o kids.

so, back to the drawing board. hubby has put me on task to start searching for jobs for him. so we shall see.

:)

so kate got me thinking....

i am reevaluating myself too and it sucks. But something has to give.

We are going to a formal event on january 12th. i was out shopping last night, and while I was out tried on some formals. Needless to say I just wanted to sit down in the dressing room and cry.

I am at my largest I have ever been. I have noticed that with my last child, my stomach has been stretched to kingdom come, and i am seriously doubting i will ever get that even remotely back.

I am trying to follow weight watchers. but my last two bouts with that have failed miserably - not me failing to eat the program, just my body isn't responding.

I rescheduled my appointment with my oncologist, and am going on january, so maybe he will test my thyroid and maybe that's it or maybe this is just a very huge side effect of chemo that will come around when it feels like it.

in the meantime, i just want to crawl into a hole.

hello lotsa snow! :)

i have to give it up to the mexicans. at least they work.

we have two white peeps STANDING AROUND looking at the snow as if it will dissappear on it's own.

hey, geniuses - it won't. I have photographic evidence that they are standing around - 1 stands around while the other shovels. And, GUARANTEED the association will be charged for two shovelers for X amount of hours. GUARANTEED.

wow, some peeps.

what's that old saying?

keep your friends close, and your enemy's closer?

i tossed and turned over this entire thing. The worst part is that CM is being referred to as the dark side and people there have been rescued.

ugh, i know i know, i NEED to get over this. It isn't anything personal, and those who have left have really dictated their own fate. I guess I am just more sensitive than I thought I was. But this goes back to the golden rule and how to treat people. I just don't operate like they do, so it's best they are out of my world. However, it makes it very difficult to understand their actions.

so i blocked the world out.

i did this for a reason - um, some people i thought were friends, are no longer and i have to blog about it b/c hubby thinks this is all NUTS.

So here is the high school version (or i mean the real version of what is going on)

my life with two "friends" now makes sense. One from the CM board contacted me to go to lunch with her. I kept giving her dates, she kept cancelling. Um, dude, you asked me. So i let it blow off. she hasn't been on the board in awhile, so whatever.

the 2nd one, i was in a business relationship with, and she all of the sudden, canceled on me. Hmmm...okay. was it b/c i didn't print on 10 shirts for free for you? I am so sorry.

but now, i was alerted that there is a new board out there - one that two refugees created b/c apparently the CM board wasn't praising them enough. so i joined their site. i am now no better than they are, but shit. My feelings are UBER hurt. so i will infultrate, make sure they didn't talk shit about me, and then exit with a bang....or maybe quietly. i haven't decided yet. i will most likely go quietly as well, it is the mature thing to do - aside from the fact that i am doing a not so mature thing right now.

anyway, the moral of the story is my feelings are hurt by two people whom i thought were friends. I have even met these women IRL AND LIKED THEM. (And that is rare for me)

*sigh* lesson learned. pick and choose more wisely next time - if there is a next time....

to some people, a little bit of knowledge is a BAD thing.

hmmm...some people actually go out in search of more knowledge. This is GREAT. I am glad that you are trying to expand your brain.

But knowledge should come with a warning. Like - be careful - just because you read this doesn't mean that you know everything.

I think that warning will suffice.

I was told today, by a family member, that I need to start eating organic food. I need to go to a specific fast food chain restaurant b/c apparently they make their patties from organic beef. And I have to shop at XY And Z b/c I need organic food.

Um, okay - and she was adamant about it. Well, that's nice, but unless someone's budget can afford it, then NO we won't be eating organic. Sorry. But it got into a whole ordeal - like I was going to die tomorrow if I didn't eat organic.

THEN - it went onto how I should run my life. For the past year, this person has been on my case to sell our house. Okay, um, don't you think that we KNOW that we need to get out of here? Meanwhile, she talked out of the other side of her mouth today

her: you still have credit card debt?
me: yes, but we are paying it off.
her: oh, well your dad said he was looking into a maid. you should go clean houses for a living.
me: uh....wouldn't working during the day be counterproductive to me being a SAHM?
her: well, you should take hubby's bonus and pay off your cc's.
me: um, weren't you just telling me no less than 2 mos ago that i should buy a house? we are going to have to pay at least 7k to get out of this house, and if we pay the cc's off, then we won't have any money to close on a house.
her: but not having cc is better than a house.
me; for someone who isn't living in my conditions (2 children, 2bdr condo full of plastic CRAP), it isn't.

Sigh, why do people always think that they are right? Don't they realize that there is more than one way to go about things?

I have a lot going on.

i promise you i will update either this afternoon or tomorrow - too much to do and no time to do it in :) i hope everyone is having a great time!!!! :)

tisk-tisk....neglecting the blog.

wow. this has been a whirlwind week. i mean over the top crazy.

my photoshoot is rapidly approaching. i am shakin in my boots, but there is some sort of inner peace deep within me. this client wants high-key photography, and much to my liking, i have been practicing it with clients. So much to the point that i feel comfy - not really confident, just comfy with it. So i hope things go well on sat.

tomorrow i have a craft fair. wow - it's 1:15!! holy cow - i didn't realize that it was THAT late.

anyway, hubby ROCKS, kiddos are fabulous -and let me just share some thoughts from my daughter for you - whom is 2.5 yo:

mommy - where does the moon come from?
mommy, where does daddy come from?

mommy, we don't say shit. we say awww bummer - repeat after me - awww bummer (and yes, she said that ENTIRE sentence)

mommy, i love you. you need to sleep, close your eyes mommy (She says while rubbing my face/eyes) and begins to sing twinkle twinkle little star - apparently she likes when i sing her to sleep.

i'm tellin ya, she is crazy, nuts, funny and the most LOVING 2yo that i have ever met - or, maybe it's just b/c she is my daughter :)

and lil man - omg, i caught him climbing onto a kids rocking chair today to get to a coordless phone that was on a table at my parent's house. this kid is going to do me in.

BUT...he crawled DOWN three stairs today - i was so proud.

okay, it's late. i am still panicking and i really need some sleep. i will update mostl likely on monday. :)

well hello there.....

um, yes. I have been ignoring you lately, i am so sorry!!

I have been UBER busy with my business that exploded out of the gate. I am hoping to figure out how to add a blog to my photography site. We will see how successful I am at that! There I can/will showcase my photos.

Let's see, been really busy with creating holiday cards for clients, taking photos for them, and well, my poor family has been totally neglected. My hubby cleaned the ENTIRE house - go super hubby!!! and it looks FAB!! I am hoping to get the christmas tree and all the lights up by Thursday. Or, um, on Thursday. I have so much to do.......holiday craft fair on friday, photoshoot (a large group of 50 girlies) on saturday and then a maternity shoot on sunday morning, and I think a baby shower on sunday, but that is left to be known :)

I hope my online friends are doing well - i have to run now, my youngest thinks that this computer is the devil - I *wish* we had a laptop sot hat I didn't have to be in my room and he freaking out all of the time :)