are you kidding me?

so i gave a gift of a free photo session to my friend from college - really I am not that close to her, but I did it in conjunction with some other things.

They were THRILLED with the session. Then I send her pricing today, and she is upset b/c I charge a $1.00 per announcement fee for my gift prints (normally $2.00 per announcement) and then had the audacity to tell me that she could get them printed cheaper somewhere else. I told her that I don't release my digital files, and that these announcements printed up on regular paper don't look as good as photo paper.

So now i am thinking that she will order like 25 and then scan them in. i am pretty bummed right now and will end up making a policy change in who i give what to in the future, but people not paying for good work suck.

i was seriously trying to do the right thing.

and now....

i just want to explode.

GREAT - airfare is up to 300 from 161 the other day. NICE. I TOLD hubby we needed to book that night, but NOOOOOO we needed to wait four freakin days to get his mother to call us back so that we could make sure they would be available. Nice, now we missed the fare and it's going to cost us 150 more. great. i am so annoyed. this whole thing annoys me. i am busting my ass to try to get out there, and NOTHING from the ILs other than we hope you can come.

at this rate, it is too close to the kids's birthdays that i don't want to go. i have other things to do - like get our damn house on the market and plan their birthdays.

i am pissed off.

I am a whiny mess today.

wow. i haven't been this sick in a long time - normally it's just the usual cold turn bronchitis. this one, is evil. it must be kids germs.

it starts off with random sneezing. then more frequent sneezing, then it disappears all together. then one night, whilst you are fast asleep, the germs attack leaving you feeling like you hit a freight train the next morning. and for many mornings to come. and dealing with kids?!? forget about it - i let the toys and tv deal with them.

man, i feel like a guy, i have been complaining so much :)

A poll of sorts - family support.

So, if you live by your family, do they lend you support in the way of watching your kids or helping you around the house?

I am just curious. I have two cousins, they both have families and their mom watches their kids quite often, probably more than i would be comfortable letting my parents watch ours. BUT when they went to sell their houses, the ENTIRE family pitched in and went room by room with them and got it into selling shape.

We are trying to get our house on the market. We have tons of clutter, that I am slowly weeding out of our life and it is making us both less stressed. HOWEVER, this is in between my youngest having on ear infection that won't go away, therefore needing to be held all of the time. And then there is the toddler that just doesn't grasp the concept of picking up once done. She is learning slowly, but not quick enough for me.

I just can't seem to stay on top of things, and we aren't getting ANY support - for example today. I asked my mom weeks ago if she could watch the kids so that I could go get my xray. Then, the other day I asked her if i could go work out for 30 minutes (as that is all I am doing right now to help build my lungs back up) and she said no problem. BUT then today she must have forgotten it b/c now she wants to go to lunch (something I am not fond of as I do not like eating in front of her since she watches what I eat) and then to my house (messy house) to watch the kids for my xray. Then off to run her errands. She works 1/2 days BTW. and apparently her errands can't wait so that I can go work out for 30 minutes as eating isn't a priority in my life, working out is.

I just don't get it. I am frustrated. I want to check out of my family for awhile as this is totally getting on my nerves. And yes, I am resentful. Very resentful that they won't help in any way (be it taking the kids or whatever) they have this preconceived notion on how things should be, and apparently helping your kids out isn't one of them.

ooh, i can remember - my cousin whom does as little as possible mostly, went to move. she watched the kids and got food while everyone else moved. Now is that how I would do it? no. but that is how she chose and really, do we need to judge?

Maybe that's it - this entire post is about judging not how we do things, but how other's judge our actions. Now that I know that, I can definitely tell you that my family judges EVERYTHING - how you look , dress, what you eat, what you buy, your time frames for doing things, etc.

But like I told hubby, they can lean on me all they want for things that they think I am doing wrong, but unless they are willing to help contribute to get the desired end result that they think we should have, I think they should pay more attention to their marriage than to us.

oh yea....one more thing.

so i decided to crate a dinner club for my mom's board.

And so people have been emailing me with their email address, and consequently, bitching about the location - my house.

And hubby's work keeps using his phone to contact him - which screws us and makes us have to pay for our cell phone. and hubby won't tell them to f*off and call his work phone that they so generously purchased.

why do i have to fight everyone all of the time? we have a 400$ outstanding cell phone bill b/c of this. do you think he will put a VM on his PERSONAL phone wiht his work number on it?! no. why are men like this?

hubby leaves tonight.

I hate it when he travels, but I will be okay. It isn't like he will be gone for 3 months ! :)

I have my very last in house studio session on Sunday. I just can't take my crap to other places, too much stuff, not worth my time. I can't wait. Although, the woman isn't being very nice about things and then threw in - well this is M's first year photos, so bring all your props!

*grrr* so i wrote her back saying i had a basket and a bowl and if she wanted anything else to let me know b/c she is my last in house session and I just can't fit everything into my car.

oy. I will be VERY glad when I am done portfolio building. This part just plain sucks.