To my dear friend Nini...

i was thinking about you today - and i hope that everything went well.

:)

Wednesday

I can't believe it, I am soo excited. He is doing much better, less crackling in his chest and we are going home with oxygen (albiet a small amount) but it will comfort and support him for the next week.THANK YOU to everyone for your support this week...,curly and family.

Tuesday

Well, the doctor came in today and said that it will be a couple more days - unless peanut pulls through and gets better soon. Poor guy - he is quite awake and alert now, but I can't bring him more than 2 feet from his bed as he is hooked up to tons of monitors :( He is actually starting to cry and babble now, which (I never thought I would say this) excites me because for the past week he would cry and nothing would come out.

Thanks everyone for your thoughts and prayers - this has been a long, long week.

Tuesday

Well, the doctor came in today and said that it will be a couple more days - unless peanut pulls through and gets better soon. Poor guy - he is quite awake and alert now, but I can't bring him more than 2 feet from his bed as he is hooked up to tons of monitors :( He is actually starting to cry and babble now, which (I never thought I would say this) excites me because for the past week he would cry and nothing would come out.

Thanks everyone for your thoughts and prayers - this has been a long, long week.

Long weekend - continuing through this week.

Well, my lil man has RSV - and was hospitalized on Saturday - his oxygen level was 63% by the time that we were able to get to the hospital. I was terrified and upset. Both of us spent the night here on Sat and then I stayed last night and tonight - it was horrible. He is showing signs of improvement, which ROCKS. :) Hopefully we will be back home tomorrow.

germs suck

lil man has RSV/bronchitis and my big girlie had pneumonia and an ear infection - and the ped is recommending that i go back to the dr's office for better meds as the amoxicililn isn't working - and my cough is horrible.

good lord.

I love my new camera and lens.

if you are deaf...

don't live in a condo.

the lady downstairs has been playing computer games ALL DAY LONG. the same freakin' song has played in our house ALL FREAKIN DAY LONG.

I am so tempted to go down there and ask her to turn down her computer or purchase her ear phones and leave them on her door - we are getting ready to sell our place - if this persists throughout the day, i will kill her. Granted, she is like 70, but still............i am going to go insane. How do you tell someone nicely that they are super loud and vibrate your floor daily?

Don't come round here...

We're all sick!! Poor lil girlie has pneumonia and an ear infection and my lil man is just stuffed up, hopefully he won't get this crap. I have something, but you know, my head is up my bum and I didn't ask the dr what she thought, just happily took the prescription that she gave me!

Hopefully the meds will start to take effect soon!!

Things are finally back to normal :)

My hormones have left the building, which is GREAT. It was like a horrible PMS - I kept crying. When I say kept, like there was no time off from crying for about 5 days!! I am glad that is over.

We are all getting our new routine together, and getting used to a newborn again :) It is nice. Our family feels almost complete. We are going to make a decision in the next few months as to if we want another one or not, but I told hubby that I didn't want to do that decision until about 6 mos pp.

It is cold here today and I have a lot to do but I am sitting on the comp b/c my daughter is sick and all she wants to do is watch sesame street, so I am happily letting her poor girlie!!

Our lil man is fast asleep in the swing, and he loves it there so I will let him stay there for a bit :)

Hubby is at work, on a sunday morning!! Poor guy, but he has to fix something, sooo.....not much you can do!

Shock.

So, we grew up with two families when we were little, both worked with my dad. One family had 3 kids, the other 4 - the family with 4 kids, one of their kids just had a baby in Nov 05, and he died this past week of SIDS. My heart just stopped. As I sit here counting my blessings for my healthy baby, an old friend is grieving her unexplained loss. I am so sad. SIDS is so unpredictable and just a horrifying loss for parents and family.

:( my heart goes out to them.

after much thought and crying...

hubby and i have made a decision to bottle feed. having your little one cry for 30-45 minutes before even attempting to latch on just isn't worth it. And by "it" I mean my emotional and mental stability as well as the well being of my child. I can spend much more quality time with my lil ones and less time crying myself. While I do agree that BM is best, I also agree that I can't be a good mom when I am neurotic and depressed because this isn't working.

I am jealous of those moms who can bf and don't. I am going to pump and see how much I can get out, and then go from there. But he will be bottle fed, which won't kill him because I have living proof that formula isn't poision :)

Anyway, I feel as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and that we can all try to move on as a family now. I am deeply sad, but it is truly in the best interest of our family.

eating issues

we went to the ped yesterday and my lil buddie is having problems eating. so we are supplementing through a bottle to give me, and him, some time apart. our nursing relationship was very strained. we seem to be back on the road to trying today and...speaking of.....time to eat :) I hope things go better today.

I will glady take that shot of amnesia medicine now.

LOL - soo, um, why do I remember my first birth with such glee and happiness? And why does this one seem to plague me? Was it the shot of amnesia that every doctor gave me last time around?!? LOL. Or was it the lack of people living with us before and after the birth - or the lack of control over the situation that made things easier? Who knows, but someone who told me that the 2nd time is easier

LIED.

:(

I can't post anymore on my mesg board(s) b/c they are tired of hearing my issue with my hubby and this baby. But I can't tell you how upset I am right now. We talked last night and he doesnt' want me telling anyone that he is concerned about his job. I don't know exactly why and he won't tell me other than he is worried about one person who is interested in everything he is doing. He got home at 7:30p last night and left at 6a and then left at 5a today and just told me that he doesn't know when he will be home tonight. He got home, ate dinner, and went to bed. Gave everyone a kiss but me. Then my parents called to see if we all wanted to go out to dinner (ILs are in town) and he said, well, dunno when i will get home, and i said well, whatever we will go celebrate before this baby is born and if you are there fine, if not fine.

I just don't know what to do. I am on the verge of tears constantly and can't cry b/c ILs are here.

I don't understand it. I don't have the energy for this right now.

I love sunday mornings...

Sittin here with my daughter watching cartoons - there is really nothing better in the world!!

Hubby ROCKS - he totally cleaned the entire house, minus our bedroom where all the crap went, but god I love him.

Today is our family birthday princess party. I hope that she has fun :)

what a wonderful night.

we were lucky and went on our first date (albeit double) in, well, I can't remember how long :) it was nice, it was with another couple, we talked mostly geek and business, and very briefly about our kids or pregnancies. It was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice, I had a great time, we ate EXCELLENT food.

mmm....we were all happy leaving :)