after much thought and crying...

hubby and i have made a decision to bottle feed. having your little one cry for 30-45 minutes before even attempting to latch on just isn't worth it. And by "it" I mean my emotional and mental stability as well as the well being of my child. I can spend much more quality time with my lil ones and less time crying myself. While I do agree that BM is best, I also agree that I can't be a good mom when I am neurotic and depressed because this isn't working.

I am jealous of those moms who can bf and don't. I am going to pump and see how much I can get out, and then go from there. But he will be bottle fed, which won't kill him because I have living proof that formula isn't poision :)

Anyway, I feel as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and that we can all try to move on as a family now. I am deeply sad, but it is truly in the best interest of our family.