so kate got me thinking....

i am reevaluating myself too and it sucks. But something has to give.

We are going to a formal event on january 12th. i was out shopping last night, and while I was out tried on some formals. Needless to say I just wanted to sit down in the dressing room and cry.

I am at my largest I have ever been. I have noticed that with my last child, my stomach has been stretched to kingdom come, and i am seriously doubting i will ever get that even remotely back.

I am trying to follow weight watchers. but my last two bouts with that have failed miserably - not me failing to eat the program, just my body isn't responding.

I rescheduled my appointment with my oncologist, and am going on january, so maybe he will test my thyroid and maybe that's it or maybe this is just a very huge side effect of chemo that will come around when it feels like it.

in the meantime, i just want to crawl into a hole.