update on life

i am so not in the mood for anything thse days.

i totally screwed up a fundraiser that we are having. i put the wrong invites in the envelopes - great - they didn't have my parents address on them so now no one knows where to go for the fundraiser. Nice. stoopid lisa. my mom calls to inform me of this and then offers no help, other than to tell me that i have too much going on and i need to pick something to do and cut out the rest.

your right mom. right now i have no clients, and just two kids that i am running around trying to keep up with. oh, and btw, you and my sister were supposed to help me with this fundraiser b/c it is a TEAM event - not i do this by myself event. nice. so, the fundraiser is in two weeks, and well we probably won't have a huge turnout, if any.

my business website still isn't up, and at this rate it will probably never be up. hubby doesn't come home until 7 pm every night, leaving before 7 am every day. that leavs me with um....NO time to do anything with the site as i am thoroughly exhausted by the end of the evening. i just want to curl up in a ball and cry. i am seriously not sure this sahm thing is for me, yet getting a real job sends me into an anxiety attack. i hope i am not the only one out there that feels like this.

i seriously blame a lot of this on chemo. i was NEVER this absent minded before chemo. i seriously think chemo changed my brain structure. I can't remember simple things and keep screwing up things that matter. ugh. this stoopidness has got to stop. :(