i think i might lose it.

i found out i have a blood clotting disorder. It is rare and can be treated with vitamins. Now, I go onto worrying about my children and my extended family, mostly my parents. My parents and sister will get tested soon, and in november i will ask my ob at what age my children should get tested for this genetic disease. This breaks my heart, but explains a lot in my family in way of illnesses. I am just so sad. I am tired of being in doctors care and fearful for my unborn.


having dh away isn't helping matters much.